I am unsure about the academic path I am on. I truly whole heartedly believe that I am where I was always meant to be. I believe I’m in this path because Allah knows that it is best for me. Yet, I have thoughts about “what if?” I chose one subject over another because the second one has more “career opportunities”, but a part of me tells me (and even one of my friends) that perhaps I would’ve flourished in subject A if I was majoring in it, because my degree right now makes me miserable. It has maths and I’m not good with maths, even though I won’t major in a math related field, it is still going to have an effect on my overall cgpa. The guilt of my parents spending so much money after me eats me alive and on top of that if I can’t even hold a decent cgpa where do I go from there? I know Allah has it all planned and that I’m meant to be here but I can’t help but feel guilty and unworthy of the position I am in and the privilege I have. Because what if it’s nothing but a complete waste? What if I become nothing but a complete failure? I console myself saying that Allah knows best (which indeed he does) and that he knows I can manage this hence I’m here. But what if my choices brought me here when Allah actually gave me signs to not to choose what I chose? I know it’s such a trivial thing when so many worse things are happening and perhaps I’m worrying about a future where I don’t even exist, but it just makes me loathe myself
Unsure about the path I’m on. What if I’m where I am because of my choices and not where Allah wants me to be at?
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Your decisions are also part of allah’s plan, good or bad, you’ll be tested with them, so if you think your major is doing you more harm than good, switch to what doesn’t feel so heavy, your grade will be up , and since you don’t have interest in math related careers why suffer with it now?
that ofc if u truly want nothing to do with scientific careers.
Pretend like you’ll die by the graduation day, would you regret how you gave this path years of your life?
may god make it easy for you
Allah SWT may bless you more patience and ease your heartache/depression.
On my personal opinion you should be always on Zikr , reciting the names of Almighty Allah will ease your heart and makes you more believer to Him and His decisions.
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